hey everybody!!! im back again!!!

heh heh... drink, l4d2, out wif my frens for the past few days... damn...

last night matt brought me to watch Avatar...

gosh... and he din realised that the ticket he bought was actually meant for today...

and and!!! Avatar is so damn freakin nice!!! best-est movie of the year...

i was actually so "sucked" into the movie that i actually believed that such a beautiful world like Pandora exist!!! and i wanna live there!!! i seriously dun mind turnin blue to live in such a peaceful and beautiful world seriously!!!

and if u have not catch it den u are a total idiot.

oh yes, my CT ended on the 16/12 and guess wad?? celebrate los... but i shall blog bout the post CT first...

damn stressful even after Immuno paper...

after the papers, my class had a BBQ over at The Loft together wif our class manager..

din really interact much wif dem on that day, except for carol, sabby and wendy... eeren, yeemeng kenneth and casper crashed into my class BBQ... spent most of my time wif dem instead.. haha...

after which, shawn, yeemeng and me went over to kenneth's place to bathe and changed into clean clothes before headin over to St james...



really have to thank them both ALOT ALOT on that night!!!
because of my stuff, they din get to enjoy much and have wasted alot of time waitin and travellin.... damn... but they are so steady to accompany me...


takin turns to be blurred out... heh heh..




so who did better???

that night it was like so freakin hell packed like shit...

including the freakin dance floor...

my sister aka chiobu

mr stage

friend of shawn who was celebratin his birthday

look like girl girl right??? wad a waste that he is not a girl..

even guanwei passed a comment that he look like me... -.-

first pic: retarded kenneth

second pic: retarded yeemeng while im tryin to keep my pose

third pic: all not retarded =D

then after that was back to ken's house to sleep... poor guys have to sleep on the cold hard floor while i occupy the bed... ok larz... it was gentlemen of dem...

and i freakin din remove my contact lens before sleepin which resulted in sore, teary and red eyes... freakin hell din wear contact lens for the whole day even when i went out...

the lazy pig while waitin for ken to wash up

off to Great World City for some lunch before ken send us back to our respective home

the pwetty purple table!!!

ok... end of post CT... now to muggin for CT... had been studyin at Mac...

not forgettin the live soccer screenin at mac...

yeemeng's hand...

contributed by me and eeren... and gosh... wif eeren's presence really cant study one de los...

talked plenty of nonsense...

one of eeren's nonsense.. took a picture of himself and freakin set as my fon's wallpaper

out of boredom, we started drawin... guess who draw who...

candidates: me, yeemeng and eeren

then on another occasion, ken joined me and yeemeng to study together... haha.... all of us were studyin for our last paper so it was quite difficult to focus...

den out of boredom again, i plucked yeemeng's armpit hair

and here are some of wad we had made out of it

and more armpit hair pluckin of course

was really enjoyable studyin wif dem wif all the crap and ghost story... i will never forget how yeemeng was scared the hell out of him at the playground... haha... i know he know can already...

sometimes i really dunno wad to do...

i need advise but i dunno who to get it from... i mean its like who else who knows bout my matter that i can approach to for some unbiased and sound advise???

i am not goin to lie and say that the future is full of promises

i suddenly have this urge of givin up on everything...

by everything, i mean everything...

what the hell... dunno what the heck is wrong wif me... at this time gettin all emo... ought to get a gun and shoot myself in the god damn head...

after since, fri and sat, i felt that life is really freakin unpredictable...

juz this 4 months alone, i have come to know 3 deaths...

and on sat alone, i have seen 3 bike-car accidents consecutively...

man... it really got me thinkin i should seriously enjoy my darn life the darn way i want it...

who knows one day i might jolly well end up like one of dem...

yoz yoz!!!

guess wad?!?!? am now at BB Mac studyin dilligently.. haha...

yeemeng was like sayin "pui" when he saw me typing the word "dilligently"... wtf!!!

too bad i cant upload any fotos up now.. haha.. that skinny pig...

gotta study study liaoz le.. missed alot of lectures= alot to catch up... damn...

MMB this friday... haha...

DO NOT PROCEED IF U HAVE A WEAK STOMACH!!!

EGGS!!!

most of us would not have problem eating eggss but i do!!! at least for two weeks or so...

i shunned eggs totally... be it hard boiled, fried egg and so on...

i was totally grossed out from wad i have remembered doin in CCTA prac...

we had an experient dealin wif eggs and this is 4 day old fertilised egg..

have a good look at it...

last chance to turn back now!!!

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you have been warned...

yeah... this is like the 4 day old chicken embryo...

u can see blood and blood vessels formin on the egg yolk when u crack the egg open ( with utmost carefulness )..

it was really astounding yet gross to see such stuff wif ur own eyes... and i swear that " thing" is pulsating... it is freakin alive... no joke!!!!

the top part is its body and the black black thingy is its eyes...

here comes the gross part... u see the scissors... yes... we have to cut the embryo freakin into half.... god damn it... den have to further cut it into smalller pieces... the smaller it is, the better... throughout the whole prac, i was feelin ssick in the stomach... i let my group mates to handle it... damn....

now, whenever i see eggs, i am reminded of this.... -.-

yes.. i know it has been slightly more than a year...

i do admit that in a blink of an eye, a year is gone... i realised that u have not been copin very well all this while... and trust me, mine is not as smooth sailin as wad u have thought either...

i do have my times when i have memories keep comin back to me, i guess u should have already known that if u had been readin my blog all this while... till now, they are stilll recurring... one song that hits me the most would be "Empty Streets" by Late Night Alumni... that is y i had never took this song away from my blog for so long... this song has sentimental values to me... dumb i may sound, but...

indulgin in reminisce by lookin at fotos in my laptop is i wad do occassionally... the fotos are absolutely the sweetest as compared to those as i have taken wif my previous ex... his short 4 months is absolutely nth, not much worth remembering as compared to ur mere 3 months... the memories that u had given me were amongst the best, just like how u have given the best to me...

perhaps i should not be typin all this down...

but i really do wish that u are able to move away from this shadow that has been castin over you for a year...

on a lighter note, HTM to ... !!!

today, matt brought me for a meal of black pepper and chili crabs and stingray... haha...

have been L4d2-in wif johnny and co for quite a bit last week... haha... people who know me will know that i love

zombies and gore too...

went to Zouk on thursday (031209).. heh heh... it has been quite awhile since i last clubbed... heng my bones were not shattered from dancin the night away man... miss dancin so so much...

that dreaded yeemeng had to do that when i zilian~

too bad he din go...

prata and home sweet home~

sat went to watch New Moon... ( supposed to watch wif someone else budden... ) i have been waitin for it for so long... till now i still dun get why girls feel that edward is all so handsome when i disagree...

i think Jacob is way more handsome and cuter after choppin his lockz... damn... but Edward is a vampire and i like his character, ME LOVES!!!
(feelin all so confused)

u know... since young, i have been tellin my sister how much i wished for a vampire bf... the one who is fair, cute, handsome, tall, sweet, romantic, faithful, devoted, gentle and able to protect me... you know,everything else of wad edward has shown in the movie... this is wad a vampire possess... and i believe i look for this traits subconciously when choosin a bf... budden i think it will be damn difficult to find my dream bf... haiz... in my dreams man... FIND ME A BF LIKE THAT!!!

for some reason, i was so obessessed wif vampire and blood suckin since i was like... 7??? so much so that i used to bite my sister alot, really alot... plus i caught her unaware so she was very pissed wif me all the time... no joke... ask my sister and she will start complainin bout this matter and get agitated.. haha... there were bite marks... but now i dun dare to bite her... i remembered a few years ago or lesser than a few years, i bit her and she started screamin at me... *guilty look*

till now i still like bitin people... but then again, i dun go around bitin people like some mad woman...


speakin of vampire, i still haven get my vampire teeth done... damn... had been dragged for so long... Elmer!!! when are u goin to ask ur fren?!?!?

and... i hate that saturday bitch... ArGh!!!
feels like knockin her god damn teeth out...

to kenneth ng: sorry for ventin out on you and the 12 fingernails marks on your arm...

seriously im really lost for words...

i have never stepped onto someone else'e toes, but i got mine stepped on repeatedly... i would not have cared as much when it was some other people but now... sometimes we are so held back in confessing everything, in trustin someone... im really so tired of all these...

but sometimes the circumstances do not allow us to... what else can i say???

im really tired of explainig, tired of proving myself right, tired of tryin to please everyone, tired of my life bein controlled by others...

how often are explainations dismissed off as excuses....

this is one of my two babies, irritating...

well, i got them both last year when my sister decided to buy them as my birthday present...

yeah... the perfect present for me... =)

two years ago, i had my first hamster named softie... she was all cute, cuddly and does not bite... you see, i always have a habit of lookin at my hamsters whenever i am down den start talkin to her... she seems to understand everything i say, and even looked at me wif her black beady eyes...

my heart broke into pieces when she passed away... to make things worse, my fuggin father didnt allow me to bury her.. instead he made me throw her body down the rubbish chute!! totally WTF!!! i hated him... i hated him for makin me doin that... hated him for disallowin me to bring her to consult the vet when she was sick... next time it will be his fuckin turn... i cried my eyes out over the week and was all moody (while some people made comments like " come on, tiff... its juz a hamster... ") fuck dem seriously... i den decided i should not get another hamster again...

and now i have 2... now my heart aches whenever i see irritating... he is lookin older and weaker as each day passes by... damn it... I SERIOUSLY CANT TAKE THIS HEARTACHE!!! I AM SO SO AFRAID OF LOSING HIM!!! i hate myself for not bein able to do anything to help him... when he is sick, yes, i took him to consult the vet ( and again, there are people who told me that i should not waste my money, i could easily get another hamster... fuck u pple again! )

i really dunno what to do... i told my mummy juz now bout irritating... well.. she told me, u gotta prepare for all this shit if u wanna keep a pet... damn... i love dem more than anything else... i gave them the best... i treated dem better den treated myself... i'm more than willing to spend money on dem...

I SERIOUSLY HOPE THAT DAY WOULD NEVER EVER COME!!! NEVER!!!