jus woke up not long ago and decided to blog first before i hit my books...

Rather short post as my photos are in m y sister's camera... damn... so so many photos are with her los...

wednesday night went over to Ice Cold Beer to meet Cashe... chilled while waitin for his friend to finish his work and fransca dollin up... it has been ages i had a nice chillin session... it was so smart of me wantin to club without realisin that i din have any document of identification wif me... it was L4D again!!! frans, bert and me totally owned cashe and his fren.... muahahaha...

step one cute.. =p

Cashe


den on thursday, it was phototshhot for the maids cafe thingy... and omg!!! the girls are so kawaii nehz... the peeps over at the studio are so friendly and nice.. it was totally enjoyable...

me wif two lovely cats....

after that went to Sushi Tei at Holland Village for dinner....

after my fillin dinner, walked aroud abit before headin over to Chit Chat Club... bert's fren was celebratin her borthday over there..

birthday gal, Candy

ok... shall end here for now... will blog more when i get my photoss... heh heh..

Dedicated to Benedict Lin

thanks for being there always whenever im workin...

though we may only know each other for about 4 months plus, but u were always givin me support in wad im doin, make sure im doin fine, makes sure no one bullies me and such....

i remember we got to know each other at Jab when we were playin 5-10... subsequently, u asked me out to St james but i was always workin den u changed to comin to Jab... we even had our virgin Singapore Flyer experience together...

i miss ur presence at Jab so much... i have never thought your departure on the 12th would affect me so much... it had never crossed my mind that u are actually held dearly in my heart till then... all along, i thought we were more of an acquaintance rather den close frens...

initially i thought that kelvin and the rest were pulln my leg and even scolded dem... when i learnt that they were not kiddin, my tears flowed immediately, refusin to accept this fact, u know... even when i was called to the police station to take down my statement...

even as im typin now, im tearin... ur frens told me to let go gracefully as u wun wan to see me so upset anymore.... im still tryin very hard to digest this cruel fact...

after one whole day of cryin non stop, i thought i would be fine...

after drinkin i thought i would be fine...

fine and strong enough to attend ur wake...

but i realised, im neither of these... it was so heart-wrechin to see ur pic there... i was so reluctant to leave but i cant take it stayin there any longer.... it toook me very long time to get my emotions back to normal...

i miss u callin me "tiffy"

miss u keep callin me "come take photo lehz", "go out lehs"

miss u keep callin me and kaypo wad im doin or where am i..

we din even have a chance to say a proper goodbye..

but ben, i still hope that u are in peace now, lookin over ur loved ones...

you will not be forgotten by me and will always be held dearly in my heart, not next to my heart...

misses, tiffany

whoopies.. finally blogger is functioning well again... i have not blogged for dunno how freakin long....i forgotten wad i did on which day again... but.. nvm... shall blog bout those i havee pictures of den...

Yest i went for the fitting for the Maids' Cafe (press conference) at Old School... yeah... so this is the outfit that im gonna wear (bottom pic), but there are alterations to be done... man... damn excited bout this job and there is goin to be a photoshoot on thurs...

but sad to say, i was not selected after the castin for Panasonic electronic product launch... but nvm... there are other times... =)

on the 15th, it was celebration of my grandma's and cousin's birthday over at Tunk Lok Restaurant (ECP)... it was oso the day when i waited for someone for so long till i was damn pissed off as i hate waitin esp hours of waitin... juz some pics to show...


my grandmummy


been wantin to show u guys my CUTE! niece for very long le... pretty and cute lil darl..


i find this particular dish look very obscene... dun ya think so???



and yeas... thats bout it... too much pic to be uploaded... hehe..



elmer's cute dog dog...

i remembered i went alot of UFO catchin toys and L4D-in wif frans and co. UFO catching toys is an expensive activity... actually there are plent of other of soft toys that we caught budden i oni took pics of some...

freakin giant stitch... but too bad its not mine... if its Kuromi, i 'll make sure it is mine.. muahaha...

forgotten on which day, bert brought me to do manicure before meetin my sister and her bf for a movie.... i think it was called "where got ghost" i would say it is Jack's worst movie ever made.... it is oso a day which i wun forget for a negative experience...

on one of the days was drinkin session wif frans, gwen, ben, bert and cashe... we had a hard time decidin which pub to go before settling for Amber21 which was a freakin wrong choice.... damn.... but after that, we went to Sabai Sabai...

Frans and Tiff

i am a person who find it very hard to trust a person...

it takes me very long time and plenty of convincin to do before i can trust a person fully...

i din allow myself to trust u initially, but u told me to trust u, this and that...

for once, i told myself, maybe i should put my heart in and learn to trust a person and i made myself to trust u fully...

but...

u betrayed my trust and that is wad im afraid of...

i know after this inicident, sad to say, i may have difficulty in trustin u...

everything u say, i always think twice, makin sense out of it (clearin all the suspicions that immediately pop up) instead of juz listenin and say ok...

you may say im bein paranoid or wadever, but that is wad u get when u betray my trust especially when u lied to me bout something that would affect me so much... so much so that a **** was given...

u know sometimes ur inner voice calls out to u when sensin something is amiss, it cant go wrong...

" well... u are in tis state becos both of u care for each other... if u dont care at all... u wont be so messed up.. both of u jus wana put effort n make things work out...
probably sometimes u two are jus too harsh on each other..... "
this is wad lp sent me... lookin back at this, it is rather true...
i think we are unable to understand each other fully and cant seem to see things eye to eye...
-.- ... wrong move from the start...
dumb of me to accept "it"...

8 years is really damn freakin loong... can someone actually really forget this period or relationship established over in juz simply a few months???
will everything goes back to square one one fine day???
a forever break-patch thingy???
the lovebirds have been in and out of each other's way for a number of times but still got back together...
talkin bout insecurities...
talkin bout sensitivty...
talkin bout changin...
dun talk to me bout all these when neither "securities" nor "sensitivity" are showed...
i'll do wad im supposed to do naturally till iam VERY sure of what would the endin be like...
P.S. stupid errors in stupid blogger that do not allow me to edit my fonts and everything... fcuk...